Infertility and marriage

Children have always been a dream of mine. Until recently, I always thought that getting pregnant was easy. Heck girls in high school are doing, so it must be a piece of cake. Boy, was I wrong.
My husband and I have suffered three miscarriages on our way to becoming parents. Nothing has tested our marriage like those three miscarriages. Below are 5 lessons/points that helped us fight those storms.

1.) Support each other – You are going through this together. You are not alone. Lean on each other when you are sad.

2.) Talk about it – The biggest struggle that I had was opening up to my husband. Once I was able to put the words together and discuss it with him, I learned that he was feeling the same way. Talking is golden in these situations. This way you are not bottling everything up.

3.) Always remember that you love each other– It may seem so simple but msometimes it was tough to comprehend.

4.) Trust that a baby will happen – There are so many ways for someone to get pregnant or to have kids that you must trust something will happen.

5.) It’s okay to be emotional – This is a very emotional time and its okay to let that emotion out. There are moments where you feel perfectly fine and then the next minute you are in a depressed mood. It is all completely normal to feel this way.

Hope this gave you some insight into marriage and dealing with miscarriages. 

Until next time 

Jennifer

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When my due date approached.

Today should have been my due date. We should be in the hospital, waiting for our little one to arrive. Instead, I woke up, took a shower and headed to work. My world became so different back in September. 

When the doctor told me I miscarriages again, I was depressed. I could hardly talk to anyone without tears in my eyes and a heavy heart. I was struggling with the what-ifs. Over some time, it got easier to accept the harsh reality and slowly move on. But in my heart, I knew that March 21st would be my toughest day yet. 

If you had told me in September, that I would be okay and able to make it through this day, I would have laughed. Strangely enough, I have made it through today with every little meltdowns. It hasn’t been an easy feat but I’m surviving. 

Instead of bringing a new life into this world today, I’m bringing home the bacon. Instead of cuddling with a baby, I’m cuddling with my puppy. Instead of becoming a family of three, I’m spending the evening with my husband. 

Somehow, I’m surviving today. Just like I will every day. 

All my love,

Jennifer

 

 

 

Book Spotlight || Debt by Rachel Dunning

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Book Information:
Title: Debt
Author: Rachel Dunning
Published Date: March 2016
Genres: New-Adult Romance/ Sports Romance

Book Description:
The Debt Collector
I pay my debts, and I expect others to.
I was raised in the slums of London, I knew nothing of privilege. My father was murdered when I was
seventeen. Morty figured my father’s passing meant I would automatically take on dad’s debts. I
refused.
And I paid for that refusal.
So did my sister.
So now I fight. All I know how to do is fight. The best cash is in the states, so that’s where I am now.
A big fish called Vito came along offering me a “favor” when I arrived.
Another debt.
I paid for that one too.
I knew Kyla Hensley would be trouble when I met her. But I wanted her. I could see through the
falsehood of her wannabe-slutty clothes and her sexy legs. So I chased her.
Besides, trouble is my middle name.
Kyla Hensley
I was brought up in privilege, but I lacked everything else. My father is a business tycoon who buys
and sells and doesn’t care who gets rolled over in the process.
I never knew my mother, and all I have of her is a photo with a note scrawled on the back in French
saying “I’m sorry.” The only Female Figure I had growing up is my dad’s wife who is a bleach blond
with seven boob jobs. We never bonded.
I drink. I party. I meet guys.
But I wasn’t always like that.
I’ve had a string of lovers in the last few years, the worst and most recent of which was Vince
Somerset. My best friend Vera was dating a guy called Rory Cansoom who is the opposite of Vince in
so many ways, and yet so the same.
She and I hit the road for the summer, getting away from the two college psychos and just trying to
have some fun.
But there’s a funny thing about trouble, the more you run from it, the more it finds you.
Which is when I met the Debt Collector.
It was only supposed to be sex. He made that clear. I made that clear.
That’s all it was supposed to be.
I never expected to fall in love. I never expected to fall so deeply, madly, uncomfortably in love with
a man who is wrong, so wrong for me.
And yet…so unbelievably right.
Content Warning
Not intended for readers under the age of seventeen.
Purchase Links

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About the Author
Rachel Dunning hit the scene in August 2013 and is the author of the highly praised Naive Mistakes
Series, Truthful Lies Trilogy, Johnny Series and the paranormal romance series, Mind Games.
A prolific writer, she sticks to stories where Alpha Males aren’t pricks and where women have guts.
She’s lived on two different continents, speaks three different languages, and met the love of her life
on the internet. In other words, romance is in her blood.

Website * Facebook * Twitter


Excerpt 
~Kyla~
“Tell me for real,” I say. “Tell me what I didn’t guess about you.”
Logan doesn’t answer, and already I’m regretting the question. I know something
hurt him, but who am I to ask him about it so soon? I’m breaking my rule, I want to
know him, I want to know everything about him.
He shifts his arm so that my head is no longer resting on it, leans forward.
I did overstep it, but I don’t care. Maybe this is the last time I’ll ever see him again,
and I want to get everything I can out of it, not only the sex I’ll demand later.
He looks down at his feet, then at me.
He inhales a deep breath, and then he says something to me that will forever
change the way I think about the world. He tells me a story that puts my own life in
perspective, and makes me question what I’ve held dear, and what’s really important in
life.
He tells me about how he lost his father. And his mother.
And why he fights.
And why he continues to fight. And what he really sees when he’s in that cage, the
hate, the fury, the pain.
By the end of it all, my world is shattered, the floor is shaking, I have no stability.
By the end of it, I know one thing, and I know it to my core, my very fiber. And I
don’t care if it’s too soon, I believe in intuition, I believe in it more now than ever.
The thing I know is this:
I love this man. I love him irrevocably. I love him more than I’ve ever loved
anyone.
And I know I will lose him.
I know it. More intuition.
But I love his very soul.

 

Who am I?

I was sitting around the other day, trying to come up a post when it hit me. Why not re-introduce myself? 

Here goes nothing. 

Me on Thanksgiving

  1. I’m allergic to Squirt, the soda. It’s my only allergy.
  2. I have a strange phobia of elevators. 
  3. I dislike chocolate. 
  4. My husband and I have been together for 10 years, this year. We will be celebrating 5 years of marriage this August.
  5. We are parents to a three-year-old golden doodle named Stella. Picture Below.  
  6. Reading is my favorite pastime. I love getting lost into a book.
  7. I’m obsessed with soccer. 
  8. I coach a Girls Under-18 soccer team
  9. I love country music. Carrie Underwood is one of my favorites.
  10. I tend to change my purse as much as I change my clothes.  At a friend’s wedding last October 
  11. I chose Pepsi over Coke every time.
  12. I’m born and raised in Washington. 
  13. I have very strong localities to all Seattle Sports.
  14. I love to travel. 
  15. I’ve considered going back to school to get a teaching degree.

Hope you enjoyed getting to know me again. 

Until next time!

Jennifer

 

 

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Hello! 

Remember me? The person who has neglected this blog? Well, I’m back. 

Apologies for my unintentional absent. Life got in the way. One of my new resolutions is to be a better blogger. No time like now for a little update.  

Back in July, I started a new job. With this new job, came a new routine. 

Near the end of July, the hubs and I found out we were pregnant. As I’ve mentioned before I’ve suffered two miscarriages so this news was difficult to process. The timing could not be worse, with just starting a new job. 

Within the first couple of weeks of August, I went to my first doctor appointment and the pregnancy was confirmed! Since I’ve never made it to this pot, I was feeling better. I left the doctors with a skip in my step and my ultrasound appointment scheduled for a couple of weeks later. 

Flash forward a couple of weeks and the ultrasound appointment. After the ultrasound was done, I headed up to the doctor to get the results. That is were my worst fears happened… Again. I suffered another miscarriage. 

Long story short. I’ve been spending the last few months dealing with the side effects, physically and emotionally, of this last miscarriage. I’ve been in more doctor’s offices, trying to get answers then I want to admit. 

I’m at a better place where I can write about my story and blog again. 

Cheers to 2016!

– Jennifer 

5 (on Friday) reasons the U.S. WNT will win the World Cup

Happy Friday Everyone!
This Friday has extra meaning to me. The time has finally come for the 2015 FIFA Women’s World Cup. Sunday at 4pm, the US Women’s national time will be taking on Japan to bring home the gold. I have been waiting for this moment for four yeatrs. 
For this week’s Five on Friday, here are my five reasons that the US Women will be hoisting that trophy. 
*All the pictures will show you how much this means to me*

When we went to Vancouver to watch the World Cup live!

<One>
We have a score to settle..
The last time that the US Women held the trophy was 16 years ago. Four years ago, we were so close that we taste the victory. In the wildness of soccer, one moment changed the course, and we ended up leaving with our Silver medals. It’s time for US to be the best.

My homemade shirt! 

<Two>
Our fan base is incredible.
Women’s soccer is becoming wildly popular. Since the world cup is in Canada this year, it’s almost a home field advantage for the US. Those 23 women out on the field are playing for our country.  We are selling out stadiums left and right. This fan base deserves the gold. 

Stella has World Cup spirit. 

<Three>
Defense wins Championships.
And our defense is into to win it. They have gone 500+ minutes without giving up a goal. That is impressive. Our defense is solid. 

Twins!

<Four>
We have Hope…
Hope Solo that is. Our keeper has been fantastic. Regardless of all  her off field drama, when the time comes, she pushes it aside and performs. She has kept us in this tournament. I might be biased a little though, cause she is a Washington Native. 

USA!

<Five>
Because I want them to!
At the end of the day, if you want something so bad, it ends up happening. I believe that we will win. That’s good enough reason for me. 

*Photo taken from US Soccer*

This Sunday, if you are looking for something exciting to watch, turn on Fox and watch the Women’s World Cup final. You know I will be. 

– Linking up with April and company- 

Blog Tour || Future’s Edge

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 Book Information:
Title: Future’s Edge (a Triology)
Author: Mort Herman
Published Date:  September 25, 2014
Genres: Science Fiction / Fantasy

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Book Description:
Most people do not carry the fate of the world on their shoulders. Sam Greenhut does.
By the year 2230, the world is no longer dependent on fossil fuels. All power is harnessed directly from the Earth’s core. A clever integration of neural technology and wireless energy gives rise to the Global Network (GNET), revolutionizing society. Diverse industries operate efficiently under the umbrella of a neurally connected world economy, powered by an unlimited geothermal fuel supply controlled not by Presidents, Sheikhs nor Monarchs, but by a Corporate Federation run by seven individuals.
This is the state of the world when the Corporate Federation charges Sam Greenhut with ensuring GNET’s unquestioned reliability and integrity.
Sam sees a world whose population is totally dependent on GNET, as if the previously admired trait of self-reliance was weaned from the gene pool. Inevitably, the insatiable demand for energy prompts a reckless decision by Corporate Federation board members to expand the geothermal energy lattices. Despite Sam’s protest, the choice to exceed the cautionary “Greenhut Limits” precipitate a string of earthquakes that destroy GNET and plunges the planet into the chaos known as “The Upheaval.”
What happens next fundamentally alters the destiny of the planet and catapults Sam into the center of The Seed – book one in my science fiction trilogy, Future’s Edge.
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My thoughts:
– This is my second time adventuring into Sci-fi type of books and I’m beginning to think that they are not for me. Overall, this is was a good book for someone that likes Sci-fi books. However, I just couldn’t get into it. I would recommend this book to anyone that likes sci-fi or adventure. Like I said, this was a decent book and I am glad that I read it. 

3stars

Blog Tour || Choices

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 Book Information:

Title: Choices

Author: J.L. McFadden

Published Date:  January 21st 2015

Genres: Adult, Paranormal Romance

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Synopsis: 

This book is written in such away that it can be read as a stand alone or after the first book of the series- The Guardian. After so much more loss Adela finds herself in the middle of a love triangle and the fight for the head of Covens.

Adela and John both have their fair share of choices to make. Adela must think of her coven, but at the same time she feels a burning desire for her great, great niece’s Guardian John. She is torn because though fate has blessed her great, great niece with a Guardian that is connected to her by Mother Earth to protect her from anything, she keeps rejecting him. John is torn between the woman he is fated to and Adela. He fears that it is Adela’s powers of seduction that is tempting him. He feels a desire to protect Gala, but also feels a yearning for Adela. At the same time Adela must search for the secret journal known as the Guardian journal and protect those she loves from the dangers that lurk in the shadows.

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My thoughts:
 – What made me want to read and review this book was the fact that it’s outside of my comfort zone of genres. I’ve very big into YA books and lighter adult novels. There was something appealing about this. I am so glad that I adventured out of my comfort zone.
– I was at a little disadvantage since I didn’t read the first book in this series before I read this book. But honestly, it wasn’t even a factor. It was easy to follow.
 
– It was nice to see a book about vampires written so well. The last good series was the Sooki Stackhouse series. Check it out. 
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Author’s Bio 
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J.L McFadden is the Author of the Guardian Series: Guardian, released,Adela,release in September, Chooses, release in May 2014, Adela’s Lost Guardian, March, more to be named at a later date. McFadden spins tragedy and romance into all of his stories with picturesque descriptions that vividly paints and melts the scenes into your pleasure cortex that is a valid and important part of every readers mind. 😉 Jamie Lee was born in a mixed Celtic and Slavic family in the river valleys of Pennsylvania, in his earlier years he played in bands in New York and ended up working his way into H.Q of the largest musical retailer in the world Guitar Center; while working at the store level he managed multiple departments at once and handled all the stores merchandising logistics. He has explored the world and became the first American to be excepted into the Interregional Federation of Aikido Aikikai of Crimea & Sevastopol, where he enjoys learning from great masters from around the world, where he has developed his himself. He explains that the people rich and colorfully different people he has met, spawned a lot of his characters.
Author links:
  • $30 Amazon Gift Card + all 3 books in the series in paperback
  • 2x $5 Amazon Gift card + all three books in ebook format

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Friday iPhone Dump

Happy Friday Ya’ll!
Kelly and I are heading to Shania Twain tonight! Hope everyone has a good weekend! A few pictures to get everyone excited for the weekend! Time for a little iPhone dump from the last week or so! 

 I think Stella is the most excited that I am home. I woke up the other morning to this cute face. 
Sometimes at a Sounders game, you need to spray paint your hair. 
Our best friends joined us for the Sounders game. 
This is my picture of us. My college roommate and her six year old son. 
When you are in a lighthouse, you must take a selfie. 

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Blog Tour || Hard Wear

 Title: Hard Wear
Author Name: Marilyn Lakewood

Author Bio:
 

Marilyn lives in the northwest U.S., not too far from the Canadian border, and believes the long, cold winters are perfect “writing weather.”

She started writing romantic, sex-driven stories “just for fun” seven years ago. Today, she’ll joyously admit she’s obsessed with creating hard-core dominant heroes and happily-ever-after endings.

Visit Marilyn at 


 
Book Genre: Romance/Hot Alpha Billionaire
Publisher: Troll River Publications
Release Date: February 14, 2015
Buy Link(s):
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Book Description:
 

Book One of the Hot Alpha Billionaire Series

Stand alone. Not a cliff-hanger. HEA. M/F, Mild D/s themes.

How does a sophisticated man with everything, convince an unassuming older woman with nothing, that she’s what he desperately needs?

At 36, Chase Tanner controlled his world and the women in his bed. With a grown son and several successful businesses, he thought he had everything a man could desire… until he walked down the aisle of a country hardware store and saw exactly what he needed for a happily-ever-after. Now, he just had to make her believe it.

You’re just not good enough, Kali.”

Her ex-husband’s hurtful words echoed in Kali Benson’s heart as she rebuilt her life in tiny Laketon, Washington. It took some time, but at 39, she’s happy, self-sufficient, and emotionally armored. She’s strong enough to resist a sweet-talking hunk, who drives an old Dodge truck and makes her feel nineteen again… isn’t she?


 

 
Excerpt:
 

Chase took the shortest route to the auto accessories area and cut through the carpentry section. He turned down the aisle and his steps slowed. Fuses, old trucks, everything, dropped off the radar as his gaze focused on the woman perusing the locks-and-hinge display.

Sweet. There was something incredibly sweet and alluring about her. More than pretty, she was arresting. His heart did a drum roll against his ribs, and he drew in a deep, stabilizing breath.

Easing to a stop a few steps away, he positioned himself near the opposite side of the aisle as if he were interested in something other than her. Not the most inspired tactic, but he needed a moment to process her intense effect on him.

In profile, she had a straight, refined nose, full lips, and a balanced chin. Thick, golden-brown hair shimmered in glossy layers past her shoulders, styled with a fringe of bangs across her dark, tawny brows.

When she pulled an item from the display, he noticed she kept her nails a short, practical length, and she wore no wedding ring.

His eyes drifted down her slender length, admiring her lush, handful-size breasts and the pert nipples that dimpled against her knit top. She had a slim waist, gently rounded hips, and a great curvy ass, temptingly displayed in a pair of distinctive cutoffs. They were distinctive to him, at least. Although she’d removed the label, he recognized Soft Wear jeans and understood what the brand signified.

This little beauty might not want anyone in Laketon to know, but if she bought those jeans, she harbored at least some sexually submissive desires.

In a sudden, vivid image, he pictured her in his bed, her body pinned beneath him, his hands holding hers against the mattress. He imagined her thighs around his hips. The first intimate touch of his cock to her sex. Her mouth parted, gasping when he shifted deeper.

The fantasy jolted him.

He flinched and she turned her head.

Large, topaz eyes danced over him, and she smiled distractedly, the merest civility necessary, before returning her attention back to the shelves. He’d been dismissed. There was nothing haughty or superior about it, but apparently she’d found him unsuitable.

A grin tugged on his mouth. He enjoyed a challenge.